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Thursday, 12 July 2007

After a long break...

Geez...it's been more than a year since I used this thing. I guess I've taken solace in other forms of expression...namely junior year stress headaches. hehe. I highly doubt anyone reads this but me anyways, so I guess this can be for my own amusement now.

I love weddings. They are SO exciting! It's the start of a new story for the people getting married. They get to move on to this new place, and start fresh...just the two of them. Sometimes I wonder about myself. I don't really know if I was ever meant to be a teenager. I mean, I am in the sense that I throw fits, and fight with my parents, and am probably not quite fully mature yet, but honestly, all I want is to surpass this. I want to be an accomplished woman with a great, successful career, and a family. And when most people say that they mean...ya know...eventually. But I mean now. That's where I want to be. I'm tired of being a teenager. It's stupid, and meaningless, and no fun. Adolescence is possibly one of the most tumultuous times in a person's life. I don't know where these crazy people come up with crap like..."High School are the best years of your life...". That's highly irregular even for the kids who are popular, and well liked. I can't wait to graduate next year. I just can't wait.

Hey, as a side not: I'm not crazy depressed or anything like that, I swear. This is just the way I feel about adolescence.

Monday, 19 June 2006

Currently Listening
All The Stars And Boulevards
By Augustana
Boston
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Get your head IN the GAME!!!

Hello everyone. Ok, so my question for today is...

Why can't people just get it together?

I mean why do people have to be so insecure about things that are certain? I know, I am. But I don't understand why. If something is real and true, then why is it doubted? People have self esteem issues...but they shouldn't have them. As long as you're happy with yourself why should you care about anyone else's opinion? The only time you should change is if you think you need to change! NOT when someone else says it's time for you to change. I have issues with myself, but I hide them, and most times I just let them go. I wish everyone could just be nice. Then we wouldn't have problems like this. No one would ever hurt, or feel insignificant. But hey, what do I know right? I'm no expert. Anyways, after I watched A Walk to Remember, I thought about how Jamie said, "Without suffering there can be no compassion." Well, maybe that's true...but I wish there could be compassion without people having to suffer just to be shown it.

Alright...I'm going to go and eat some scrumptious lunch! Hunan Chicken to be exact. Yay!

- I also hate it when people type "2" instead of saying "to" or "too". What are you too lazy to type out one or two more charecters? Okay, all done. Bye!

Sunday, 18 June 2006

Currently Listening
Someday We'll Know
By New Radicals
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Hello. I have decided to restart my use of this convenient little venue to pour out my feelings of happiness, sadness, hate, love, anger, etc.

How's everyone doing?

Me, I'm tired. Tired of the effort it takes to maintain any kind of relationship with a person. Really, I know everyone has thought it at some point, and I'm saying it now. You can never effortlessly make a relationship work...because then it's just dysfunctional, right? But some people have such amazing communication skills, and can get people to reciprocate and care enough; those are the lucky ones. And then there are those people that lay back, and let the other person do all the work; takers. And then, there are the givers.The people who will do anything for the people in their lives, and still get nothing in return, ever.

That sounded marginally intelligent! How exciting! But, I've thought about it, and I'm usually one of those people who gets reciprocation. I'm so glad for that. But, there's been an odd time or two when I've been the giver, and I really hate that! If you're taking up the precious time and attention of someone else, make sure you are giving that time and attention right back!

Ahh, That was my thought for the day. This was nice and very soothing. Like a sauna...although, I wouldn't know since I've never been to one. Ok, I think that's enough.

- One more thing. I really hate it when people spell enough as "enuff". SO annoying.